just for now.

heeey. I know I haven't been on here in a long time. so I might as well tell you the update. I don't know if I mentioned my amazing boyfriend, Jacob Medina. we've been going out for over nine months, and those nine months were the best nine months of my life so far. we've promised each other forever, and we both intend on keeping that promise until the day that we'll be sent nine feet under.

I have also moved to Murfreesboro tn along with my family. not really my thing, but its nice. i finally have my own bedroom so cant complain about that.

now i am constantly looking for a career but in the mean time i am reading and writing. its what i love. i don't know exactly what i want for my future, as to my career. but i know i want it to be something with English. whether an English professor. an author. a journalist. or even a critic.

while all of this is going on i am trying to lose weight so when my loving boyfriend comes out to visit me in June, Id feel much better. also so i don't have a tummy in the pictures we will take. so exercise exercise and exercise.

anyways my laundry just went off so i too am off to go fold..yaayy (sarcastic)

hope your life is as amazing as mine <3 p=""> 

Hello Again

heeeyy everyone:) ohkay so i know i havent been on here for like the longest time, which is really sad for me, because i love to write.

 Anyways my family is moving to tennnessee within the next few weeks and I dont know whether to be excited or sad. I dont want to leave behind my most amazing boyfriend, Jacob, but at the same time I wanna see what Tennessee is like. And I've been trying to get a job to earn some money so i can save up for an apartment you know, but my work Aeropostale isn't giving me any shifts! and on top of that I'm not getting any replys to the places I've applied to.): So I guess my main fear is that I wont be able to come back to CA within the next six months or so and I know that me and my boyfriends love is strong, but its going to be weird not to see him four or three days a week. ):

The one thing I'm looking forward to if all else fails, is my room, not sharing it with my sister! yaaayy!:) I want to go to college, but the colleges there has a strange system.:O you have to pay by the hour, not by the credit?? Anywaayyys I am gonna go look up colleges :) Happy holidays everyone:)

just some thinking

so i know i havent been the most perfect christian lately. but while i was doing meh civics homework i got this sudden urge to pray to God. then i got the urge to read the bible, which im still meaning to do. i guess im writing this for myself. even though i dont get these amazing messages to tell meh to go do these things, like go on belieze, which would be my dream and would change my life. i know im still getting messages. i just have to listen. like changing how i am, and not judging, and yelling or screaming, or cursing, and no more lust. i am going to be a chosen child of God. the more i think about this, the more i wanna cry, but the more it makes meh happy. i wanna cry because i know my weakenesses all too well. and He does too, and i know i have done so many horrible things in my life that i am not fond of, at all. but it makes meh happy because i know when i pray to Him, its like all of a sudden i can finally tell him everything. and then He's there, right next to meh, i can feel it. i am going to change for the better, for meh, for meh family, and for my God. I wanna go to belize so badly. and i know i can raise money by July. its a 1500 dollars. but i think if god wants meh to go, He'll be there helping meh(:

so manyy...

everywhere i look i find meaning.
like a good writer would. but can i really call myself a good writer? i have all of these ideas for these books that in my mind will come out amazing. but everytime i start it, i cant finsh it...sometimes its cuhz im not inspired, or i forget. or i start on another book. well ima start again on meh book stuck in the inbetween. my only concern is that i cant find a publisher...when i was little i always had this idea that when i would go out to a bookstore, id find my name everywhere. just didnt know it was gonna be this hard...

writing is my passion♥

so ever since i was five years old, i wanted and loved to write. i remember writing this little, well book kinda thing, about how i am a princess.(X now i was five sooo no judging!:)

& then around 8 or 9 i wrote zoieys slumber partyy
then 10-14 was all about poems
and nowwww i have sooo many different ideas for a storry but 1. im not brilliant at writing. & 2. i cant concetrate. & 3. idk if its an amazing idea or not.

soooooooooooooooooooooooo i researched a little. & i mostly just have to practice writing, and read...ALOT!:) i even checked out a book from the library(:< so far so good!

but i really want my career in writing. writing anything and everything!!

ill post my different story ideas later and u can tell meh which one is better(:<

it's a new day!!:)

ohkay ohkay. so winter formal is coming up in feb. feb 3rd or thee 4th. & i REALLLYY wanna be meh goal weight: 133 pds.& i have figured out how to do that..
sooo
the first 4 weeks: lose 3pds per week!
then the 5-8th week lose 4 pds per week!
then finally the last 5 weeks lose 3 pounds per week!!
& that shud be good. give or take a few pounds:)

i reallllyy wanna get a SMALL dress size this year
im tired of being a L or a XL:((
so here i gooo!!! for winter formal & mehself!! <3

today is the day:)))

so a little recap of meh week:)
1. got nominated homecoming princess
2. went to six flags.
3. retaking econ test on thurs
4. HOMECOMING DANCE ON SATURDAY!!!<3

so i guess now that  i got nominated homecoming princess. i have to be SUPERsocial..which shouldnt be toooo hard(X
wish meh luck!!:)
theyre gonna dress meh up tomorrow at school(X
then last nite i went to six flags with meh bf <3 and his family:)
got home around 2am:)
& im supppperr excited for homecoming dance on saturday! super hero theme!!!! wonderwomen??? i think so!:)

dieting: day one(:

so as i member i promised meh self this summer wud be all about losing weight..but of course something always got in the way...well now its august n i have a lil over one month to lose 20-25 pounds..i know it might sound unhealthy, but im still gonna eat and everything i juss need to cut back seriously.. hhah.& of course the exercise which now since i have very lil time.. i need to step up the game. hopefully i can stay dedicated n lose the weight(: & i also hope i can complete meh check list everyday n post on here..juss to encourage other ppl things can be done, as long as u stay dedicated...ill make shure to post a pix of my full body every week so i can stay dedicated... heres meh check list for today(:

1. walk/jog 8 laps.

2. do a total of 100 sit ups

3. do total of 25 push ups

4. 3 glasses of water

5. jump rope for total of 15 min

6. leg lift..total of 6 sets five times each

7. 5 fruits and veggies

8. crunches: 20 on each leg and middle

ill come back tonight to post what has gotten done(:

thinking thinking and more thinking

i guesss this is the time in my life where im confused on what to be?
i shure do hope so...cuhz thats where im at
hahahas!
bc i love fashion and im getting influenced by it
but i also love writing and literature
buttt at the same time ...history
siiiggh what to do what to do
soooooooo i guess i juss have to wait to see where
this path is taking meh?
down jennie road
until left at fashion
or right to literature?
orrrr maybe i can do both?
fashionita at day writer at nite?(:
hahhahahah
gimme any advice or ideas? they wud be greatly appreciated>:)

fashion ♥

so lately ive been getting into fashion ♥
in fashion 2 class iam currently making a dress♥
so farrr,, not to great, but its not awful(: ♥
&& at home i am making meh own lil fashion book ♥
its mostly juss gonna be meh sketches. haha♥
& i have cut some pix out of magazines to get some inspiation ♥
ill try and post some pictures of meh sketches after i am done ♥
i thinkk i have a plan >:) ♥
steps

1. enter joanas contest for prom making dress

2. sketch a wonderful and beautiful dress

3. make thee dress

4. cross meh fingers ill win 2nd( 1st wud be nice>:))

5. take that money (50,000 for 1st & 5,000 for 2nd)
and use it to go to fidm

6. there ill start meh career and become a fashion designer(:

*hahhahahah..wish mehhh lucckkkk(:

wow..this long, huh? 3/18/11

today was : alright
mood: sick
listening to : demi lovato: who will i be?

•my oh my how the week can go supirses meh. thursday was rosanas bday. tuesday was luis bday.
•since yesterday i've been sick. not the throwing up kind of sick. the sore throat and headache kind of sick.
•my anatomy teacher, Mrs. McGowan, is letting meh retake the test on monday.
try to guess what i'm going to be doing this weekend?
•prom is getting close .
tomorrow i shall start meh diet.
my equation?

1.5 hrs of exercising + healthy choice - junk food =loss of weight [fingers crossed]

juss got done watching burelsque..pretty good. i recommend it:)


[[juss living lifee..no time to make regrets. only memories.]]

beyond the rack

http://www.beyondtherack.com/member/invite/B42B00C6

yooh seem to never believe and once in a life time u get ur victory

sooooooo i really reallly reallly reealllyy wanna go to rancho...the end:)

proud to be a Britte

this is meh...

i AM a writer..

im not like taylor swift who only writes about love..

i write about happiness, tragic, friends, family, all that great stuff..

i was actually thinking bout writing a story where this girl &&her sister was seperated from her family at 12 years old..and now that she is 18, she's going on a journey to find her brother && unite with her family.

thee reason why they seperated was bcuhz her brother, now "dead" <--notice meh quoting..the brother

was in a gang, andd dre, the brother, was getting chased from thee other gang, and the other gang found her sister&& put thee intials of K.B. in her stomach.

the dad heard on thee news that there was shooting nearby, so he went to go check in Kaci (the main character and daughter) room to find out that shes gone (bcuhz she didnt want her brother to get hurt.) and thee dad goes lookng for thee daughter and son and thee dad killed the gang members so the B on kacis stomach was not all the way finished..the dad went to jail and the brother went missing and kaci went to an orpahanage.

sad..but it will have a happy ending.

meh oh so fabolous life(:

so after the tears and madness..i guess this rollercoaster i call meh life gets better.
ups are for now..and i noe that there'll be downs in thee nearby or future..but thee most important thing to do when there is downs..is to remember thee good times. and always get back up(:
at meh fwends house, nicole. we watched a movie called "the karate kid" and it was actually REALLY inspiring. the main part that i loved thee most was when dre (the kid) said "im trying to get back up..why wont u help meh?" after he broke his leg. and he still wanted to fight again.
so this past week-month i have been hanging with this fwend of mine named nicole(:
&& we have alot in common(:
thennn friday she slept over..today. went to fair. and movies(: theennn tomorrow off to thee workout place..my house. harahar. i have been eating so much junkkkk): hopefullyyy this week will be meh dedicated week. 2 hours of homework on monday-thursday and thenn 2hrs writing in journal and just hanging(:
i guess i havent really realized how much meh parents do for meh...&& i think now that im getting to that year of maturity<--hahaha i finally respect meh parents(: soo meh quote of the week is
the first step to keeping a goal is saying "i can do it..and think about how yooh can. next and final step is to DO ITTT♥ so here are 3 main goals of mine for this week

1. lose 2 pounds
2. thank meh parents for everything..even the little things.
3, stay dedicated to h.w. MEANING TWO HOURS A DAY
=]

hahaha and for this junior {woohooo} i want to take at least 200 pix of meh and meh fwends..(:

boom boom POWWWW♥ hahha

that is just one of them(:

BYE BYE NIGHT WORLD(:

one last one ill post(:

SWEET 16{GONNA SPREAD MEH WINGS}

soo on friday thee 24th..meh fwends came over to celebrate meh sweet 16..
from thee left to right it goes meh. sabrina. matt. jordan. chez. gina. sandra. and brenda..or half. hhaha
katrina and nicole werent in thee picture):
bt it was amazing.(:
i had all meh close fwends
andddd even though they didnt really noe everyone..i had fun.

<-- meh old dance buddy before she moved to another hs):

haha i havent sseen sandra in forever

&&of course sabrina who has always been there for meh(; love yooh~!!!!
and tank yooh mom for all thee hard work and effort(;

so i have been saved at meh church <--calvary chapel(:
&& im on a mission to be commited to god
 get confused..and turned around
i picture depressing things
but i want that to change
i want to be sure of the choices i make
which will hopefully be good ones
&&i want to be proud of myself..
even though i am bipolar. i want to learn how
tolove that and overcome it in life.
i want to be meh.
sooo i am going to try to go to church
every wensday and sunday
pluss i am going to give 100 percent to god
i am going to work harder and be better♥hopefully
andd to get started on this mission. tomorrow i am going
with meh church right after school
to help feed thee homeless(:
give yooh thee details on how that worked on monday night(;
&& maybe after a month or two of going to church
ill try out for thee worship team???
hahahahah thats be cool(;
♥meh life that ill live(: bye bye(:

mhmm..so i havent exactly been on here for a while..a month maybe?? anywaysss alot of things has changed in meh life....
&&i noe not everything in life is gonna be easy..most of it will be hard.  ive learned that. but what inspired meh the most to live meh life is this quote i saw on meh fwends facebook profile: As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let us down, probably will. You'll have your heart broken and you'll break others' hearts. You'll fight with your best friend or maybe even fall in love with them, and you'll cry because time is flying by. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, forgive freely, and love like you've never been hurt. Life comes with no guarantees, no time outs, no second chances. you just have to live life to the fullest, tell someone what they mean to you and tell someone off, speak out, dance in the pouring rain, hold someone's hand, comfort a friend, fall asleep watching the sun come up, stay up late, be a flirt, and smi...le until your face hurts. Don't be afraid to take chances or fall in love and most of all, live in the moment because every second you spend angry or upset is a second of happiness you can never get back. - Unknown
 ive had a break up...missed meh old bff. kimmy
so why not??? be crazy around ppl yooh dont even noe?? why not fall in love ?? why nott do something crazy?? cuhz the truth of thee matter is...we dont noe wen our lives is gonna end. next week? month? year??  so wouldnt yooh want to die happy and have lots of  great memories???? forshure i do(:
i noe who i am.... and yes..sometimes i do regret it..because of all the things i have missed out on..so why in thee world would i want to miss out on any moree?? {{and no im not gonna change..for nobody...im not perfect AT ALL. i hate thee cold. i get jealous and mad easily..i cry meh eyes out over stupid things..}} but thats who i am/...and one day. idk wen. imma find someone who'll love meh just for that and more. if i have learned one thing today..or two. it would be 1. live your life til thee end. cuhz u never noe wen that is. and 2. be yourself.and if ppl dont like it. then at least u noe they dont like yooh because of who u r..not because of someone your not.

Well HELLO there(:

this blog: family/life

if it is one thing i have learned from my family, it is that we do love and need each other. sometimes life gets difficult. and it seems to meh sometimes that theres no point in living it if yooh dont got something to live for. && for the first time in.....a while. im taking two steps back to get a full picture of my life so i can paint the rest. i am stressful. mad. and i get hurt easily. but my family puts up with it. thats why i ♥ them. i noe i dont say it and i noe i dont show it sometimes...okkk maybe a lot. but only because i thought you guys were...welllll mean. yooh dont let meh dye my hair certain colors, or get certain piercings, no staying out past 8pm, not going to l.v. with meh fwend. but now i realize something that i thought the complete oppisite of. i thought yooh were trying to complete this perfect image. something i could never be. but now i realize i was looking at the short run in life, and you guys were looking at the long run. piercings and crazy hair colors wont get meh a professional job. staying past 8pm, that wont get meh anywhere if i get kidnapped. my sister..well shes my inspiration. shes becoming an adult. a skinnier one. (; she has always gave meh advice and made me look at things of a different perspection..thats why shes such a great sister(; my daddy. hes tough around thee edges and soft in thee middle. strong to protect meh. so i wont get hurt. so i wont have to face things i dont have to. i wuvv yooh daddy..dont think i forgot bout yooh mom. u r...different from the rest of us. yooh have your moments when yooh get upset or avragated. but most of the time yooh are on my side. yooh try to let meh live meh life, but thee right way. thank yooh fam bam<3

S U M M E R 2010♥

so before i enter another year at PACIFICA highschool♥ as my JUNIOR YEAR♥ i have a wish list to mhm wats that word? over come? i dunno.
1. go to SEAL BEACH
2. go to BUENA PARK MALL and play the arcade andddd buffet♥
3. have a sleep over
4. lose at LEAST 20 pounds before school starts..<-- yooh think i can do it???
5. make a photo album with AT LEAST 100 PHOTOS FROM MEH SUMMER(;

so yea...exciting huh? (cough cough)
well so far i went over to meh fwend shreeya (CANNOT WAIT  UNTIL I GET TO SEE YOOH AGAIN!!!!!) we took pix with our fwends gina. nicole, shreeya, meh, and shreeyas lil sis(:
if i ever figure out how to work this website ill post them(:
i would add more to my wish list, but living in CA for 15 (ALMOST 16, YEEEEEPPP) theres not alot to do..

blah!!!!